Friday, January 17, 2014

Y - Yield Your Will and Heart to God

Y - Yield Your Will and Heart to God

In order to yield your will and heart to God you must first believe there is one.  God knows what it takes for us to be happy, so if we follow His map we will reach that desired destination.  I have always believed that to be true and as I was raising my six small children I was trying to do all the things I was told would bring me joy, yet I found myself having a hard time feeling it.  I kept looking for a magic bullet that would all of a sudden fill me with never-ending happiness.  The harder I tried the less hope I seemed to find.  As I sank deeper and deeper into the abyss I had to hold onto the two things I couldn't deny - first, the fact that I know there is a God and second, I had to REMEMBER that I had felt joy in the past which meant it had to be possible to feel it again.

Getting out of bed had become extremely difficult and I don't think I would have gotten up most days if it hadn't been for the fact that I had six children that depended on me and I had a friend who expected me to go walking with her every morning. Family and friends - what great blessings!!!

As we were walking on a particularly difficult day I told my friend that I just couldn't do it anymore.  (How many times do we tell ourselves that? - Too many!!)  I felt like I was at the end of my rope and I was having a really hard time hanging on.  As I described to her how I saw myself and my situation, a miracle happened.  She started telling me how she saw me.  We had been walking for about a year so she knew me fairly well and was able to paint a picture of me that I had never seen before.

The miracle was that as she spoke there was a voice in my head which told me that what she was saying was true.  What I heard was, "The Meg that she is describing is the Meg that I created and love."  It was amazing because I wanted to shout, "well I can BE that Meg."  All of a sudden I knew that my biggest problem was that I was trying to be somebody else and that was the root cause of my depression.  There was no doubt in my mind at that moment that God knew who I was and loves me just the way I am because He made me that way.  My spirit had renewed hope and a determination to be the best Meg I could be.

That day was a game changer for me.  My challenges didn't go away, but I could now face them with a knowledge that God had confidence in me.  If it was God's will that I should be who I am, then I knew I could do it.  I wanted to be the Meg God wanted me to be, not who I imagined everyone else thought I should be.  That was doable! What a relief!!

How does this relate to yielding your heart and will to God? I think it is vital to believe that there is a power greater than ourselves.  If there isn't, what would all this craziness called the world be for? It's much more comforting to know that there is someone out there who knows you better than you even know yourself.  You can trust Him because He created you and will guide you through all life's challenges.  He wants you to be happy and have joy, so He will help you find it.  We just have to be willing to trust Him with our whole heart.  We may not understand why things happen sometimes, but I promise He knows the beginning from the end and will never abandon you.  We are the ones who pull away because we get scared.  Trust God and you will find the peace and joy you are looking for.


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